DREAMS
Two bits i read last weekend at Lá Fhéile Bríde, closing event for Charlotte Saint Cullens exhibition A Mean Thing at North Bar, Leeds!!!!!
If your are anything like me you had to take breaks from the current news to throw up. Wish i was joking. I been so so ill this week and am sure its zillion PDFs being dumped into the world to be processed. I am a bit better now but I still have indigestion. I’m not ready to face mango lassi yet but i will be soon. So i have interrupted my Japan stuff to post something else. All power to the survivors !!! In a sense the piece is about the feelings wheel i am obsessed with. But feels relevant now to the vomming.
BUT FIRST A WARM UP!! The twice yearly fairy investigation society newsletter just dropped with 128 pages of new sightings from the isles that make up Ireland England Scotland Wales and the Isle of Man!! This is a bit I liked which is every description of sounds from fairy’s put together. It’s a full 9 minutes of near nonsense!! Happy Imbolc!! xx
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THE GREAT SCISM
Dreams are feelings, feelings I enjoy
Edges are illusions, illusions I enjoy
I don’t want freedom from illusions
But from mediation, overlords and intermediaries
Dreams are illusions, without them I’d die
But first psychosis !!!!!!
This means dreams are sanity, and I can’t take someone else sanity
I can’t be given sanity, I have to take it.
The American dream is for the immigrant
The gender dream is for the transexual
My dreams are civil rights and flowers singing
My dreams betray no one! Never give up your dreams!
Gender isn’t real, but it isn’t not real either
The edge of a gender is 100 per cent not real
That said, since becoming a boy I keep accidentally pissing on the toilet seat
I am not sure if this means biology is destiny or not.
Lately i’ve been between my feelings, as if in the middle of the wheel
And i’ve been waking up form the dream, and waking up in the dream
At night I am walking to the edge of my dreams
Then, I had a big dream of all the little ones joining up
In my waking life I keep walking though thresholds that feel like dream edges.
Images are illusions, I know cause the edges are a dead give away
And sound is obviously truth because it doesn’t have any
And why they call it liberation through hearing
Genres are moods, Moods I enjoy
Trance could be from the mountains of Ibiza
That decent into our bodies
When two songs mix together they become one
Because - There is only one
I love the songs that bridge genres
Dreams are health, health is other people
If you’re having a breakdown, the NHS will give you 8 feelings in a photocopy
and expected you be glad, If your feeling isn’t on the list then it don’t exist
The feelings wheel has 156 unique expressions, It spins like the wheel of fortune
If I had to add a feeling missing from the wheel, id add time
I had had a laughing orgasm, and one from pain.
Recently I got chromethesia and had an orgasm from a light changing colour
A light now shines from between my legs, so I have to keep them closed
No more manspreading allowed
Before, I broke my imagination, by imagining I could not imagine
I snapped my antenna, and nearly trapped myself in this world forever
After that came the gender jokes, and those swastika jokes
Our great schism started as a meme of 4chan
Started out as so-called irony with teens on the baby web
Now, were possessed by our jokes, our memes
And I think we can all agree, no ones laughing anymore
No dreams is no feelings, I wouldn’t ask an edge lord if feelings matter
I do wonder what they are on the edge of, I guess we will find out soon
Time is an illusion I enjoy
And some say its just how many things need to happen for an event to manifest
But its also how far away we are from information, as the false objectivity breaks down
Information temporal lag. Now it takes 3 years for something to be a world agreed on fact
News come to prison three days late
I’m embarrassed to admit I don’t know about Eminem destroying Machine gun Kelly till 6 years after
But i’m the first to know when Eric Cantona does anything
Sexual abuse survivors know the names of Epstein’s victims, while tech bros selling supplements still question if its real
BBC reported the collapse of the Solomon building on 9/11 while it was till up behind them
In 2027 you’ll all know about ETs, like the indigenous already do
So I realised that time didn’t exist, and everything is now
But then I thought about it later… Do you see how deep I am in this?
I believe in foundations, and dream in assumptions
Trans is my foundational illusion, unnatural is my foundational belief
Assumptions aren’t necessarily a problem, They are a problem I enjoy
I dream of friends who point out but don’t undermine my assumptions
Of being in Athens but i’m in Rome
Lately, half of my relationships felt they fit so well its like we are psychic
And the other half are so bad even communicating with them feels like enabling insanity
but i see no monopoly of pain or fragmentation
Story is another illusion I enjoy
If you want to know the rules of this world, look at the rules of story
What foundational story do you tell yourself, if it turned out to be false would change who you think you are?
Feelings are moods, Moods I enjoy
Agro could be an accent greek god
They decided in Ancient Greece that story cant end with it was all just a being dream
Because it makes human conflict seem pointless,
And you can’t have god come and fix everything, it takes away human agency
so we have to keep going, learn how to not write outsells into a corner
Edges are illusions, Are dreams, Are feelings
Are moods, Are problems, Are genres, that I enjoy, will never give up
Memories are emotions, this world is on the edge of being forgotten
Yesterday I remembered when I left heaven
And how far away I made it seem, the made up gap
Last night I saw in the future, it split into two
they had burned of all there feelings off with swastikas,
Sometimes disguised as rewards or facts
Because- facts don’t care about your feelings!
They had no dreams anymore,
And us?
We had burned away all the borders with our gender failures, romance failures, emotional failures, all our dreams that didn’t work out
We lived in one big dream, behind the barricade of failures
Every inch claimed in feelings, i could see from this perspective,
good or bad was worth it and contributed to the new dream.
Relevant in my mind is this video of Elvis singing If I Can Dream live which is the best performance i have seen maybe ever (the thirst to be free AND nothing to prove- deadly!) I can’t find any good cover of it (impersonators tend to avoid it) Post Malone really tried but its just come by yah- NO THIRST, NO PAIN!! From the first three seconds of the first time i heard the song i knew it was really full of power!
Feelings wheel from aura farming show - photo by Jordan Taylor!! yes i am shotting these £10 each but you have to catch me!!!
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NEXT WEEK- EGGED ON THE DAILY (the next installment of my Japan Diary, talking about the homeless movement in japan and more !!!



Happy Imbolc yourself!
We seem to have always had an awfy close eye on the turning seasons back in the auld country: I do recommend a looksee at this giant fecking solstice calendar someday -
https://www.newgrange.com/
"it predates both Stonehenge and the Great Pyramids of Giza"
Aaahaaaa - Éire was once THE World's techno-superpower! ☘️👍